Wednesday, December 8, 2010

As I Experience

I sit alone in this one space. stretched everywhere.
free at last, bleeding fast--too numb to care.

or recognize. realize

I am not a beast. but a man
w/hopes, hurts & dreams to say the least.
something deep inside calling.

I'm too far gone. Could really use my best friend.
but she got called home.

Boy Astronaut

In a well-written tale,

I play the boy who became an astronaut.

Years of school, of study, of training.

Before, finally, the day arrives:


Travelling to the Moon.

It wasn’t a decision made on a whim.

I had to understand why.

Why climb higher, farther, into the unknown?

Perhaps it was the allure of silence.


I remember my first flight.

The rumble of engines, the weight of the suit,

The countdown that seemed to stretch on forever.

Five… four… three…

And then, the sky split open, and the Earth fell away beneath me.

We drifted into the deep black, like a stone skipping across a pond,

Except we never hit the surface again.

The Moon loomed ahead, pale and distant, but familiar.

It had been calling me for so long.


When we landed, everything was quiet,

But not the quiet of a peaceful afternoon,

No birds, no breeze, no hum of life.

It was a silence so profound, it pressed against my ears.

The lunar dust was soft beneath my boots,

A blanket of gray stretched endlessly,

Under the dark sky where stars hung like forgotten jewels.

The silence here was different.

It didn’t feel like home; it felt like the absence of it.


Becoming an astronaut takes more than just a dream.

The years of dedication are grueling—

Rigorous science classes, intense physical conditioning,

And countless simulations to prepare for the void of space.

Every astronaut must learn how to operate complex spacecraft,

How to conduct experiments in zero gravity,

And, most of all, how to survive in an environment that would kill you in seconds.

The Moon, though small compared to Earth, offers a rich history for study.

Scientists hope to uncover clues about the solar system’s past,

And perhaps, even our own origins.


But why go to the Moon? Some might ask.

Why subject yourself to such isolation and risk?

Because there, in the vast stillness of space,

You realize the noise of the world is nothing more than a distraction.

The silence of the Moon offers a clarity that’s impossible to find on Earth.

It strips away everything unnecessary,

Leaving only what truly matters:

The heartbeat in your chest, the breath in your lungs,

And the infinite expanse of possibility.

If more people sought such moments of silence,

Perhaps we would all learn to listen—

To each other, to ourselves, and to the universe beyond.


For it was in that same silence,

That deafening silence,

Which had made mimes of the people around me since childhood,

That I finally found my voice.